Today is Sunday; I’m recovering from the flu or seasonal allergies. No need to see a doctor. However, I am not sleeping well. Having trouble getting a niece out of mind. About ten years ago, she influenced two very young loved ones through drugs, alcohol, lewd repulsive… pedophile secrets. Probably believes my reaction is mute. If anything makes sense, what she allowed is repulsive. In fear of exposure, prison, dying, she took her baby and ran off with a child rapist. Disgusted, blaming anyone else will never make amends.
Three years ago, my mother discretely revealed the mystery. Sudden silence filled the air. My child had kept this secret for five years while I was wondering “where did I go wrong”. Time heals but ugly scars remain. Lesson learned: Life is a battlefield that is worth fighting for. Rising above it, the priority is in forward thinking.
Yes, forgiveness is fine and dandy. The devastation lingers though. Evidently, there are neurological damages; the aftermath still affects the reasoning of two victims. The anxiety, the depression, the emotional conflict persists into adult lives. I’m simply an observer. Expect no sugar-coated sympathy from me ever!
People should learn to appreciate life before hitting rock bottom. We do care! Not sure how to care in such a way that leads to improvement. Addictive personalities are challenged to live. My suggestion: Seek divine help; yet, be warned. Very few are fortunate to ever find contentment in what life is. By harming people, including ourselves, with vengeful, spiteful and vindictive animosity, guess what? Expect nothing beneficial to occur. We all have the right to remain hopeless. Yet, with all due respect, when forgiveness is mentioned, honesty is highly recommend. Another suggestion: Stop being the perverted bat out of hell that you’ve been. Until then, get out of my way.